i'm too much with myself, i wanna be someone else.

"My dictionary lists fourteen entries
for the verb quit, enough for a sonnet
on unrequited love. Most are rare, e.g.,
“to use one’s hands effectively” or “to let
go (something held).” Whatever else they meant
(to put in quiet, set free, absolve), quit,
quite & requite all carried this sentiment:
To pay back, to return the favor. Smit-
ten, I would strike you back, if I
could. Each night in my bed we fuck & fuck.
It doesn’t make you mine, or make it right.
But I won’t quit. I open my hands & shut
my mouth, my stuttered houses. I’m in your debt
and can’t get out. At least, not yet. Not quite."